Appreciation

Everyone knows that love can easily go sour. Often times, we find angry wives and tired husbands. Why? Why do all these happen? I witnessed a wife complaining about her husband, saying angry words but her eyes showed not anger, but hurt and sadness.

I've come to the conclusion, that after being with someone after some time, people just tend to overlook things they should appreciate. For example, after marriage, you come home to your wife cooking. You'd appreciate the fact that you have someone special and only belongs with you. You'd also appreciate that she wants a warm meal for you to come home to. But after a few years, you neglect that fact. Cooking becomes her JOB. In fact, you'd be pissed to arrive home and the meals aren't cooked.

Dude, she married you and is your wife. She gave a part of her life to you, to be with you. She didn't give it to you just so she can be your slave and cook, wash and clean. Wives are NOT free servants. Don't treat them like one. There is no rule written in the marriage contract that she has to cook and clean and give birth to your kids.

Everything she does at home, she does it for you. So don't cease to appreciate her little actions as love and care for you. Don't start thinking it's her duty, because it's not. She washes your clothes because she wants you to have clean clothes to wear. She cooks for you so you can have good food to eat and not starve. She gifts you with her children because she gives you the privilege of being the father of her children. She nags you about everything, because she worries about your safety and health, etc. She doesn't have to give a damn about you.

Same for wives. Your husband is out working very hard so he can make sure to provide you with ingredients to cook, with a home, to indulge in your fantasies, etc. He goes out with you shopping no matter how he dislikes it because YOU like it.

As for children, your parents work very hard, and has been doing so, probably even before you were conceived. They nag, they worry and they fret about you, because you are their special and important child and they want you to have the best in life, and not to make mistakes you can never recover from.

As for siblings, yeah, you fight. Sometimes you feel you hate each other. But hey, you guys are special to one another. Only you guys are blood related, grew up together. No one can be THAT intimately close as do you all. Appreciate it. The closest friends fight. Siblings are closer still.

Friends, sometimes you will say hurtful things to each other because it is true. You can't hate each other for that. Who's going to seriously tell you that your dress sucks or you have a bad behavior that would make you and people around you unhappy? Only the closest and dearest friends will do so because they want what's best for you.

Everyone has reasons for what they do. Sometimes, take a step back and put yourself in that person's shoe. Why would that person do that to you? Any hidden motives? Think of why the person does what he does before you snap. More than anything, appreciate the little things they do for you. They do it out of love. No matter how often they do it for you, it deserves to be appreciated. Simply put, people do many things and don't expect material things in return. What they do want, is acknowledgment that you recognized their efforts and appreciate it.

Bad Luck

What happens when bad luck befalls you? The day started nice and interesting. Jane was supposed to meet Zhong Wei nicely at 1 Utama and buy tickets for the movie "He's Just Not That Into You" and Zhai Zhai and I will meet them later when he finishes work. It all worked out fine and we reached 1 Utama and found a parking space just that close to 7pm, the time our movie was supposed to start.

I took a step out of the car and *PLAK*. The straps of my sandal conveniently broke off. In haste and embarrassment, took off my sandals and waltz the whole 1 Utama BAREFOOT. The sensation was weird but not many people actually noticed it. The feeling of the tiled floors or the escalators on your bare feet are interesting. It's definitely not a good idea to go barefoot into the cinema. You'd feel like your toes were getting frostbites on them.

Before we took our meal, we all rushed into a Bata shop to get me a pair pf shoes. The look on the sales person's face when buying a pair of shoes barefoot was weird. Hahahaha. But hey, i have shoes when i walk into the restaurant for food! Yes!

I don't recommend anyone to ever go barefoot in 1 utama. It's cold and the floor's dusty. :P maybe I should have made Zhai Zhai go barefoot while I wore his shoes.

2nd Motor Ride wif Broken

It was a Thursday, in other words, the one day that I have no class in college. I wake up at noon as usual, and squint to read a message from a cutie. "Jam, what time are you free today?"

Waking up to a cutie's message is awesome. Then my whole day was planned and occupied. I woke up, bathed, helped my family out of the house for their own activities, and went at the back to meet Broke Broke.

It was starting to drizzle, and there was Broke Broke, waiting on my high machine aka motorcycle. LOL. Guys, prince on a white horse is overrated and old fashioned. Now, there's that well-dressed cute boy on a motorcycle waiting for you and just for you! *fawns~*

This time, i wore the helmet and got on the motorcycle with no problem. Then the high experience of scenes zipping by began and everything is clearer since it was during the day. This is my third time on the motor (2 times on the first trip) he sped up way more. I was in seventh heaven! My first trip on the motorcycle in broad daylight!

When we reached, first thing to do is of course get to the cinema! After short assessment of time and movies available, we chose Confession of a Shopaholic. People, I think this movie is one of the must watch. The story is about a girl, who have problems with shopping. Being stinged on by her parents since she was young, she has this unbridled desire to own all the beautiful shoes and clothes that were pretty and expensive but not necessarily made to last. Her credit cards became her magic weapon that brings her all the things she wants. Due to fate and luck, a string of events led her to meet a cute guy she loved and she was the luckiest girl alive! But because of her obsession, she let the man she loved down and disappointed her best friend. Then, she did the right thing and fixed her life plus got over her obsession. This is a touching and beautiful story possibly true in this age and time.


After that, we went and buy a second movie! We chose Knowing cuz Broke Broke has this thing for Nicholas Cage. We jalan jalan a while all around then went back for the movie. The movie was OK. It is pretty creepy and has the makings of a horror movie. The movie is about a single father (Nicholas Cage) whose doing a so-so job at raising his son, Caleb. His son picks an envelope from a 50 year old time capsule that contains dates, number of death and location of major disasters around the globe. That part was really creepy and awesome. Then there's the Apocalypse and whisperer. Wanna know more? Watch it! It's actually not bad. And doomsday is coming this 19th October!

The guy in the cinema who checked our tickets were surprised to see us again and recognized us well. I was surprised he recognized us out of the tonnes of people going into the cinema daily. He took some time to recommend us some movies he think that we would enjoy. Honestly I was a little flattered since he could pick out our faces from the crowd.

Following that is of course... FOOD! We both made our first entrance and trip to Sakae Sushi. Broke Broke and I were disappointed because they ran out of salmon but the sushi is fresh, taste good and the system for ordering was cool! They have this computer next to each table and you get to order the stuff through the system. They have pictures you can enlarge and you can see the ingredients for each type of food they make. That was our first time eating in a place with such system so we had an interesting time figuring and ordering stuff. By the time we ordered it was already closing up since Sakae Sushi was closing in early that day. Just our luck.

Oh, Broke Broke hates vegetables. Watch me as I emphasize "HATE". Eating a load of wasabi was easier than biting into a mouthful of cucumbers. When he bit into his Spicy Salmon Roll, he had so much luck that he extracted all the cucumbers out at 1 go. Imagine the face of someone forcibly drinking the raw egg of an ostrich. Can you imagine it? Yup, that's how dear Broke Broke looked. My feelings were running somewhere between laughing in stitches and emphathizing with him since I'd look like him if I had a mouthful of broccoli.


Broke Broke can eat a lot of wasabi. Putting the wasabi in soy sauce takes away the nose flaring feel so he applied wasabi directly to his sushi minus the soy sauce. I have to say, his tolerance for such stuff is high! He hardly blinked! I wanted to take pictures of him with teary eyes but it didn't happen. So the next time, I helped him stack a little mountain of wasabi on his sushi. He was eager to test himself also. Expecting nothing, I didn't get my camera on ready and I regretted! He got teary-eyes! By the time I got my phone out, it was already over! Dang! I didn't get to take his teary eyed pictures but i still got to take some of his other cute pictures~ XD

Oh, the other thing I did notice was Broke Broke has this really cute gait. Whenever he wants to get on the escalator to go down, he watches the passing steps intently to make sure he steps into the yellow box, which means he'll be a few steps behind. In a way, that is so so incredibly cute! Gah!!! It makes me wanna hold his hand and beseech him to trust me and lead him on the escalator. Oh my goodness where do you find guys this cute?? <3

We wanted to go for another movie after that but the only available movies that won't cross 1am was not too much to our taste so we headed home. I got another motor ride~ The traffic was heavy and I experienced "walking" and weaving to get by stationary cars. I wished that it would rain then so I get the feel of soaking wet while on your bike. Call me crazy but it's an experienced. Imagine getting soaking wet, your clothes plastered to you, and you holding on to a cute guy. Comprande? XD

Thanks to Broke Broke's excellent skills I got very comfortable riding a motor. There's practically no fear. So I had another great outing with a great guy. No need to say but I'm obviously looking forward to our next outing, whenever that is. =3

Motor Ride With Broken

Broke Broke and I instantly hit off as we did click after chatting. We both discovered that we were deprived movie buffs, so we instantly planned for an outing of movie watching!

Last Tuesday, we finally managed to meet up and despite seeing his picture online already, I really have to say, he is cute! It's a really strange world where most people think that they're fugly but I don't see it at all.

When we met, we started chatting and chatting till it was a little late for us to get to an earlier movie. XD He is a nice guy and it is very very easy and comfortable to talk with him.

Right after that has to be the highlight of the whole day. We are going to go to 1 Utama on his motorcycle!! Yes guys, I know. It's just a motorcycle right? What's the big deal?

Well, consider this. I have parents who have always disallowed me from riding a motorcycle. Why? Cuz it's dangerous. Motorcyclist have high mortality rates. Youngsters nowadays drive recklessly, always cutting in and out of a line like the road belongs to their father. Or so said my parents.

As for myself, I find that I am more adventurous after my breakup. I just really wanted to try many many new things. :) Somehow, it makes my life seem more interesting and significant that way. So yeah, I was afraid to ride a motorcycle, but I wanted to just for the experience. I was so excited and kinda anticipated and dreaded the experienced all at once.

When it was time to go, Broke Broke passed me a helmet. The first question I asked him was "How do you wear a helmet". I swear, his expression was weird like I was asking him something really crazy. I know it's lame but I don't know how it works!

Then there was "How do you get up on the seat". He says, "hold on my shoulder and hop on top". I was like, "oh!". Did try it, manage to get on top, and Broke Broke was very considerate. He drove slowly. He eventually sped up a bit and I couldn't quite summon the courage to release myself from the hugging position on the bike. XD It was quite embarrassing.

People, the experience was awesome! It's really different from sitting in a car cuz you get to see all around you. No protection for you but no material resistance either. The reason why motors don't need air conditioner is because the wind totally hits against your skin and you would feel cool! The sensation of scenery and wind zipping by is exhilarating. In high speed, the ride makes you wanna scream out "yeah!!". If you ask for my one word description of the ride, the word I would use is "HIGH".


We bought a movie ticket to watch Hotel For Dogs. It's about this pair of brother and sister who had been put in foster families many times since their parents died. They were doing all they can to feed their dog Friday without their latest foster parents finding out. Their foster parents are plain bimbo weird. Anyways, they ended up rescuing stray dogs with a few more friends till they their own special family. This show had a lot to do with family and doing the right thing plus overcoming adversity. The younger brother is some sort of a genius inventor who makes a whole lot of cool gadgets to keep the dogs happy and satisfied. That part of it is really cool.


Before we went for the movie, Broke Broke and I went to Vietnamese Kitchen for dinner. The atmosphere is nice and the food's good. The service is very good as well. I ordered Vietnam Fried Rice while he had a Lemon chicken chop if i remember. Both food were well decorated. nice to eat and nice to look at. That's pretty good in my books. They served us some sort of peanuts before our meal, and it taste good! It's not the fried kacang that we get from restaurants. This once have gravy and are soft and nice.

After the movie we had another motor ride home! Guys... I love riding motor! It makes you feel really good, like swinging really high on playground swings. Holding the shoulders of a kawaii guy for security isn't bad either. Hehe...

P/S: To protect Broke Broke's privacy, I have agreed not to post his picture on this blog. Plus I think most of you have already seen him.

Breakup on a Rainy Day

What is it about rainy days that make you think of sad memories? I found myself entranced by the drops falling from the sky like it was crying. Involuntarily, my mind took a tour back to my ex relationship.



The first thing that hit my mind were the happy memories from what seemed so long ago. I remembered him holding my hand while his other hand brushed my cheek, telling me that he loved me so much and that there will be no other. There was so much love and feeling in his eyes that it could not have been a lie. I was afraid to believe because I was hurt before so he promised me that he will tell me if he ever felt his feelings change. He promised I would be the first to know.



There were many other sweet happy memories that he said so earnestly that I have no other choice but to believe it. Very slowly, he made me trust in him, to believe what he say, to trust that I was safe in this person's arms.





Whenever he made promises of the future, I would always say "we don't know that". and he would always say "I will prove it to you by doing it".



Tears fell from my eyes when even happy memories felt stinging sharp to my heart.



Finally I did trust him, and so very much at that. Sadly, he could not keep his promises, not one. Not any that means so much to me.



It's quite easy to make a promise. It's even easier to break it. It was quite heart breaking but I was the last to know about his cheating and lying. When I finally trusted him, he proves to me that he can't be trusted.



It made me wonder, where did all the love go.



I guess not all my tears have run dry yet. :) Someday I would be able to look back at myself and not feel the overpowering sadness that will make me tear up.



It does teach me that promises should not be made so lightly. Trust should not be manipulated. Important people should not be let down. :) And always to uphold your part of the bargain.

Cute boy who's with Memphis

OMG, since Memphis arrived yesterday I can't help it but to go and pick up another cute guy! I am a crazy yaoi fan.

He's dark and feels wonderful to the touch. If Memphis is hot he can cool Memphis off. Both of them work in harmony for me.

Guys, meet Zachariah~ My very own Notebook Cooler ZM-NC 1000.

I actually had to pick either the Cooler Master Infinite or him. XD Ended up I picked him for his cool aluminium body. Hehehe..

The New Love of My Life

After waiting for so long, finally, my new boyfriend has arrived. I met him about a month ago, when I so happen to pass by his website. I only saw his picture but I was deeply in love with him already.

I made a move to acquire him on 5th of March 2009, and had a confirmation that I would be receiving him in my very home in 7 working days. This news had me very excited and I counted the moments till I could have him in my arms.

A little later, I received an email saying I would only be able to receive him on the 23rd March 2009. I was devastated. I have long waited for him and was very disappointed at the prolonged wait.

Then I received good news yesterday on the 13th March 2009. :) The new love of my life would arrive on the 14th of March, which is today! I woke up earlier than I usually would on a lazy Saturday morning, at 8.45 am to be precise. I kept myself awake while anxiously looking out my door, afraid he would not arrive or that I would miss his arrival.

Finally at 10.35 am, I heard a call at my gates, and I promptly welcomed him warmly into my home. I took him out of his clothing, just to notice that he is far more beautiful than he seemed on the picture. I couldn't wait any longer. I put him on my lap and turned him on with fingers trembling with excitement.

His face was bright and without a single fault. His body was firm and I could manipulate him however, whenever I want. His skin color was sexy and beautiful all at the same time. This baby will belong to me and only me.

Ladies and gentleman, meet my new boyfriend, Memphis. It's pronounced as Mam-fis.

He's a Dell Studio 15, model 1555. His color is ruby red. Isn't it sexy? :drool:

He's my first laptop and probably my last too. With amazing specs and amazing looks, what more could a girl want?

XD Every time I look at him I fall in love all over again. I will take care of my sexy Memphis so that he can be with me as long as I can. ^_^ This baby really makes my day.